Moving On

How can two people be in a long term relationship without trusting their significant other?

This is one of the reasons that I was able to remove myself from the relationship so easily. I was not able to do anything that I wanted, unless I asked him first. It was pretty bad when I have never spent the night at my best friend of three years house until I broke up with him. At first I thought that I would be heartbroken when I went through with the breakup, but I surprisingly was not really sad at all. I am beginning to realize that I had removed myself from my relationship with him a long time ago, but did not realize it until recently. After being with the same person and experiencing so many firsts with him, it was like looking into a fog. I did not know my life without him, and it was terrifying. Once the fog cleared it was like an instant relief though, a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I could breath again.

Although we broke up, I still had to deal with him. He was turning into a stalker or something. I had to turn my cell phone off because he was calling it again and again. Thank God for silent and vibrate, or I think I would have gone insane. The day after the breakup he came to my house three separate times within two hours, trapping me in the room by standing in front of every doorway that we went into. I understand that breakups are hard for some people, but trying to trap me only makes it worse. Although I still get the occasional facebook message, text or phone call from him, it seems to be getting better and I feel like I am able to move on and live my life happily.